"My New Start"
I've never been truly on my own.
Since 2009, I've been in long term relationships and the single period never once lasted a month. I don't know how to do alone. Sure, I spend tons of my time by myself with no one else around, but I've always had a significant other who I was excited to share my life moments with.
Now I'm single. Independent. On my own. And I have no freaking idea how to do it.
I'm isolated where I live. I spend time with friends through Skype calls and video games. I sometimes see one of those people maybe every few months. I really spent the majority of my time with my boyfriends and I'm just now starting to see how detrimental that was for me.
Don't get me wrong, I'm excited to start depending on myself and being my own person. But I'm utterly terrified. I crave affection. I like having someone to depend on, someone to cuddle with me at night. I'm not just losing a person, I'm losing a hobby.
I think that's why I created this blog. I want to be passionate and throw myself into something new, something solely for me.
I'm scared, and that's okay. This will only make me stronger.
